9 years. As I sit here, I can't believe it has really been that long. There is no way. Unfortunately, it has been and it was far too soon. I have the song that I picked out for her funeral playing in the background and I am remembering all of the happy memories.
This lady, NEVER missed a basketball game. She was always cheering in the stands for my brothers and I. There was a point that all 3 of us were playing basketball for different teams. Jason at FHSU, Justin at CCC and me at Oakley. She made everyone that she could. Even if it meant going to a game every night of the week. I don't want to forget my other cousins who were also in sports. She made it to as many as theirs as she could as well. She wasn't quiet in the stands either. Boy, did she hate refs, especially when the best players on the team (in her eyes) were fouled and it wasn't called. Funny lady. Man, I miss her!
Don't get me wrong, I have always missed her, but it wasn't until I got married and started having kids that I REALLY missed her. Having to light a candle on your wedding day in memory of her isn't something a grand-daughter should have to do, she should be there. Holding your newborn baby in your arm and not getting to pick up the phone and call someone who would be patiently sitting by the phone waiting to hear the good news, isn't right. Who am I kidding, she would have probably been on her way or already AT the hospital by that point. I remember when my nephew Jackson was born and I was thinking about her that day and how excited she would have been to be Grandma Great, just like we called her mom.
We all miss her and we will all continue to miss her, we hate cancer and we will continue to hate cancer.
Every year my Aunt and cousin help ALOT with the Relay for Life in Goodland, Ks. I am so, so, so, excited to take part in it this year and I'm disappointed in myself greatly that I've waited this long.
Just random (really random!) thoughts I wrote down in memory of her death that will be 9 years tomorrow. People say it gets easier, but in all actuality, it get harder as each year passes.
My grandma was a GREAT cook and cooked for a elementary school in Goodland
:)
I have been told that Maddy looks like her!
My grandma and grandma-great at Jayme's wedding shower
Annie and Grandma's (last) birthday party.
Be jealous of my sweet hair.
Beautiful lady!
Miss her!
